Growing up was a challenge. I did not have a normal childhood and it lead to a destructive life.

 

I was abused as a child by "this man" and I became this person no one wanted anything to do with. As a result, I became a drug addict, self cutter, in and out of jail/prison, and homeless.

 

As long as I can remember, I was always made fun of. I was called BBB (Bad Body B_ _ _ _). Bucky Beaver because my teeth were big, daddy long legs because my legs are long, and I would get teased because everyone said my butt was on my back. I will always remember the day I was outside and I had to go inside the house. I heard this girl say (in front of many people), go inside so you can eat your dog food. Yes, I didn't have lots of money, the best of clothes, and I was the most likely to be picked on, but I didn't think it was that bad. Saying that, I don't think I ever had any true friends and really didn't know the meaning of friendship. All I knew was, I was different, no one really liked me, and I was always being picked on. Little did I know that, everything that was done to me, stuck to me, stuck in me, and I ended up on the wrong side of the road... I guess you can say, I was stamped for life...

 

I got tired of being picked on and I began stealing from teachers, and neighbors. When I would steal, I was able to buy nice things, take everybody shopping, go to the candy store and buy sub's from the sub shops like everybody else (no more dog food jokes). I (then) began to fit in and It was a wonderful, wonderful feeling.

 

Eventually, I kept getting into trouble and got kicked out of every school I attended. I started staying with different family members, but It did not work out.  I always managed to get sent back home for doing something wrong.

 

Soon after, my life of jail, prison, drugs, self cutting and homelessness became my life...My life will forever be changed! I was the worse of the worse and I was so far gone on drugs, I did not know if I was coming or going.

 

In the midst of my journey I had three children and was unable to be care for them (due to my drugs, drinking etc..). My mother kept my oldest son, my aunt kept my youngest son and my friend and family kept my daughter. I am very grateful.

 

This is my first time going public with my story. I have told my testimony in church and I have used my story to help others. I don't know how I will be viewed in certain people's eye's, but I can no longer hold in what needs to be let out. If I want to inspire those who have gone down my path and want to change, I can't continue to live this life of pain, hurt and secrets! I should be able to tell my story, and not feel like I am doing something wrong!

 

I did not ask to be abused! I did not ask to be a drug addict, homeless, in and out of jail/prison and a self cutter! Holding on to pain because I dont want to hurt others is doing me no justice! I have made attempts to talk about the things that went on in my life, but was told I was a lie! No one believed me and I eventually ended up on the streets (all alone)!!

 

 

Exposing one's identity is not my goal and or purpose (so dont get worried). There is a time and place for everything. I dont think that telling the world everything is always the best thing (today), for the bible says, "everything done in the dark, will come to the light"! God has given me a life full of abundance, therefore, I am happy all the day long! I choose to be happy today and that's my final answer!

 

My purpose for this website is not to hurt anybody but to inspire. I will never get what God has for me if I continue to sit in the dark. There is so much light on the other side and its time I get me a tan...I will no longer be selfish! It is no longer about me! I have to go among the others and speak the good that God has done for me!

 

I am inviting you into my world and allowing you to read and see where my journey took me and where I am today...

Hold on tight, because you're about to enter into a life no one would ever want to endure..

 

God Bless and know that God is Real!!!